Setbacks.

Personal note.

You know when you're on a really good track, thinking it's too good to be true, but you go along with it anyway because you think, maybe there really is a chance I'll have what I want and I'll earn it with my bare hands.

That usually doesn't last. And I know why, it's no trivia. Life is giving me a serious lesson. A serious thing to ponder about. To get through and to be a fucking survivor.

I know I can do it, I know I can fight through whatever it is that comes my way. But at the same time, I really also am as emotional and as weak as my physical self, the small little asian girl that you see on the outside. No one could've known that this could happen, no one at all.

I really am grateful for my friends and family who are really there and trying to help and support me as much as they could. They all have their own ways of showing it, but I really can tell how much they care and want the best for me. Thank you for everything. You have no idea what every kind word, every joke, every detour back to positivity means to me.

If you have something you really want to fight for, don't ever let go. You never know what setbacks you will have in your life that will try to take it away from you. Be a strong warrior. Be that person you want and think you should be.

Alas, I need to stay positive. Can't keep reverting back to horrible thoughts, preparing for the worst. I know Life, or whatever deity is out there, they really just want to give me a struggle to help make me define myself. Become a better person, know my real wants and needs. I know it, and I'm ready to take on whatever you've got.

PS. I REALLLY WANT TO DANCE!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHH.